Went to Mason this morning so Kami could have an Echo Cardiogram that was ordered by her doctor. Everyone assures me that there is no big deal about this test and that lots of people have irregular heartbeat and murmurs. I hope the test comes back just fine and there is no problem. Will update Monday when I find out what happens.
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The whole experience was interesting, I met Brett at the hospital, he brought Kami because today was his day for her. She was happy to see me & for me to hold her. The last time that Brett and I were in that hospital together I was giving birth to Kami. It was a little surreal, only now our relationship is more like a business partnership and we are in the business of raising a little girl. The whole situation wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be, I was mostly worried about Kam so I didn't have time to worry about any awkwardness from her dad. He might not care about me much anymore (which is fine by me!) but I am very thankful that he is a responsible and loving father.
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On the way home from the hospital I started to think about the people who "live" there with sick children fighting things like cancer. I couldn't imagine it. It takes strength to raise a child, but a sick child? A possible terminal child. What would it be like if every day you went to wake you baby up and you had to worry if they were alive? I don't think I would have that kind of strength.
On the way home, I cried.
This test was fairly routine, and I have been assured Kami is in no immediate danger, but the thought of lying next to a sick 0r even dying child sends chills through my body.
So all out there who have been through serious illness with a child, I can't imagine what its like, but my heart is with you.
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